Wednesday, January 31, 2007 ;
1/31/2007 07:38:00 PM
heys people.
sighs. today didnt work out well for me. i dont know. had CCA after school and all. and i dont know. just wasnt happy today. its like i have the most fucked up life ever. sighs. i dont wana swear and all but maybe thats the only way to solve this stupid fucked up problems. its so ridiculous. seriously. i dont know what to do about everything. its like you know, sometimes you want it, sometimes you dont. you cant have it whatever way you want to. and then when u dont want it, its there, but when u want it its not. its so stupid. arghs. sighs.
after cca came home and just slacked. dinner was like fucking unappetizing, so didnt eat. got mad at my mom. shouted at her. who really cares lahs. i hate my parents. they're just so fuced up, especially my mom. i dont care about whatever she wants to say as long as i dont hear it. i dont care what anyone thinks of me seriously. i dont care what everyone schemes against me, what everyone lies about me, what everyone who tells lies to me, i dont care what your value is, i dont care what you lied about, all i know is that you're contradictory and you're just a fucked up person with a fucked up life. if you cant find anything better, then just leave and dont even bother about anything cuz maybe no one really bothers about you. like who cares whatever you think of anyone. just vamous.
well that surely isnt enough to vent my frustration. a math test was kinda tricky today. but who cares. afterall i'm gonna flunk my o levels. like fuck. i hate the teachers in school. especially those relief teachers. just so pissed off by everything. fucking chinese test tomorrow. whatever lahs. fail lahs. who gives a fuck about it. i dont know lahs. just so pissed. go get near again, like anything would make me go real mad to do something stupid to you. if its mutual, lies was all i had. who cares. afterall what goes around comes back around. what goes up must come down. so i wish you good luck in your stupid fucking endeavours and stop acting like you really do give a shit about the situation because you obviously just wana shrug it off. i dont care how fanicful you place it. its just such a betrayl. to believe a trust was involved. smirking arent you? oblivious brat, insolent idiot, ignorant bitch.
gotta stop now. it'd go on forever so whatever. i'm just so disappointed. really sad that you would've done such a thing. just..go away.
whatever.
i'm in no mood.
every life is a new experience
