hey people.

gonna do a post on my results. hmmms. this month's been pretty terrible and pretty good at the same time. its shocking and super scary bout how your results can change for the worse so fast! anyways. the a math test was SUPER difficult! i'm really afraid of failing it! i mean that test. if i pass, then would get like a 60 odd over 100 for a math. so quite safe ((: and e math i think i got a distinction as well. yeahs. anyways.

Chem: 16/35. DAMN i didnt pass out the file! and i didnt finish the DAMN paper. especially the freaking last question. it was a giveaway! 3 marks lost like that! arghs.
Bio: 18/25

Sc(Chem/Bio): 59/100

Chinese: 55/120 = 46/100 DAMN! arghs. fail lahs.

Geography: 58/100. really expected better results. damn.

English: 78/100. quite happy about this ((: but surely could've done better.

A Math[2 tests. only know one]. Differentation: 20/20. ROC and Approx test results not known. MUST PASS!!!! ARGHHS!

E Math: online test: 17/20
written test: 18/25
Total:35/45 = 78/100


i guess i'll be getting 2 A1's this month that is like so cool cuz its been AGES since i got A1's anyways. i'm going hyseterical about my results. ARGHS! thank GOODNESS there's no lit and SS marks this time. but next month. ARGHS. kill me! haha.


anyways. i'm loving Dixie Chick's Not Ready To Make Nice. its a SUPER AWESOME song! uhh yeahs. i guess that's all!



hey people.
decided to blog despite the heavy load of work!!


a math test tomorrow on approximations,rate of change,maximum and minimum(the completing the square thing) and quadratic inequalities/roots of an eqn/equations. and i'm SO GONNA FAIL IT!!!! which means that gotta stay back the whole week REMEMBER?! arghs. this is super depressing lahs.




anyways. lemme share with you the singaporean attitudes, c'mon i dont look like an evil person who'd solicit money from the public for MYSELF. firstly, i OBVIOUSLY am not that kinda person. secondly i wont do such a STUPID thing cuz i wont earn much. ((: haha. lastly, those UGLY SINGAPOREANS are just SUPER TERRIBLE [and for a lack of a better word,they're] UGLY!!!!

scenario: orchard road's streets. alright. flag day so what. c'mon if i were the person i wouldn't have fished out my wallet to put a coin in or something you know. its rather inconvenient. so, if you see someone, just smile and shake your head, say no thanks, i've got no spare change or something. this woman LOOKED AT ME AND QUICKENED HER PACE. c'mon don't be so...URGHS you know?! this is really disgusting. i got to say that the person who might donate the most are the people you won't always guess would. now i did flag day like 2 years ago, but its totally different cuz this time it was like for me. [last time was helping my friend]. damn. this is so bullshitty.




oh wells. anyways. let me introduce you 2 songs: the first one would be Katherine McPhee's Over It. its AMAZING! its so good! and next song would be Jennifer Hudson's One Night Only. i love the tune, but her voice is so FEROCIOUS and terrorising! haha. okays fine i exxagereated whatever. haha.

xinying, i don't envy your stupidness by saying you dont have IC cuz thats a total LIE! haha. next, YOU DON'T TAKE BUS?! ahaha. you kidding me?! haha. thats more like ME okays. lol. haha. kie wu my bitch, lets fail together. jolyn, if you wana join kie wu and i, please do ((: MICHELLE!!DON'T DO WELL OKAYS! arghs. and then there's me. i dont wana estimate my failure this month. its just gonna be terrible. )): anyways. yeahs.

well i gotta get going. still have lots of work. E math vectors worksheet, literature, a math heymath worksheets, english compo on leadership. its super CRAPPY! arghs. anyways. shall end off here.


much love
and take care!



hey people.
just wana thank "passer-by" for making the comment about Hannibal Rising being the sequal. Yes, its a prequal actually, however its like the star wars trilogy, where the later books were written first whilst the earliest was writeen last. the book was actually released last year. i'm sure its gonna be fantasic. however its NC-16 so sighs. damnit why couldn't i have been born in january?! arghs.

Book Update:
next, Eldest is a FANTASTIC book! the plot is just glueing! its super! its like. wow. anyways go check it out if you're really SO free! haha.

Movie Update:
just arriveed home from orchard. saw the chingay(sp?) thing. but didnt stay for it. anyways watched Dream Girls. let me do my little review:
1. i HATE jennifer hudson.
2. beyonce is HAWT!
3. the movie is ONLY for those who LOVE MUSIC/LOVE ONE/MANY CHARACTERS
4. i'll overall rate it 3.5
5. there's loads of music. and they're good
6. i know why they chose jennifer hudson, cuz she fits the role(watch the movie and you'll know what i mean) and also they need someone to SING those terribily low and rough parts.

aites. i think jennifer hudson didnt fit the role, but oh wells. i was in love with beyonce's singing and yeahs. anyways. do watch it. norbit is NC16. like WHY?! i dont know..really. its quite silly. and then uhhms. yeahs.

Muisc update:
i'm liking old songs! 1. Stand Up For Love by Destiny's Child. 2. Angels Brought Me Here by Guy Sebestian(Aust Idol 1)

Avril Lavigne's new album is coming out this year, in fact her new single is gonna be released on TRL next week! the track name? "Girlfriend"! so do head over to a A.L fansite to get a listen!

Also, Hilary Duff's new album is also set to be out this year. i think in March. yeahs. do try to get some info if you're a fan of H.D!

Katherine McPhee's new songs are quite nice. in fact, even her old songs that i found are just as great. she has a really good approach at doing them songs. yeahs.

i think Beyonce's still an awesome singer. she's just got it. don't know why but she just is so cool and really good. anyways. yeahs.

Life Update:
Hmmms, tomorrow happens to be flag day. )): oh wells. who really does care ANYWAY....lols. hmmms. i'm gonna be doing it with michelle and yi hui. so yeahs. probably meeting some people thereafter. yeahs. anyways. life's been rather boring as of now, nothing really much going on. lotsa assumptions though, its not hate thats going on, its unbelief. but anyways. lets not discuss such a depressing issue. i cashed in my CNY 'earnings' and left some for Church so yeahs. [don't know why i'm telling you this....lols] I NEED TO SHOP LIKE SERIOUSLY i'm so deprived of clothes! arghs. c'mon gimme a break! haha. tests are super stressful okays! oh wells. i guess i'm done here. but jsut one last thing:


HAPPY 15th BIRTHDAY XINYING!!!



hey people.

today school resumed and well. kinda.. terrible in that sense cuz its just like: suddenly you get this whole load of stress thrown onto your back AGAIN. did you know stress kills sperms?! well anyways. i conclude Mr Ma is sick, and he's a terrible teacher. he's SUPER SICK! aurghs. anyways if you wana know why, just ask me, i shan't brainwash young minds. ((:


now now, dont come asking me how much i collected this CNY cuz you obviously know i wont mutter a word ((: and don't assume its a lot cuz for all you know i could've collected only $50 bucks ((: wait. thats sadistic. let me put a different face: ))): alrights. this is RETARDED anyways. today had the geog test. fisrt section was 12 MCQ questions. kinda...tricky. and then the next section was the essay question. 13 marks. i hopw i score well in that section! i really need to do well for geog!!! arghs. anyways. there's chem test and chinese test tomorrow. then next monday, there's the a math test and next week is S.S test. i hope its on wednesday cuz i dont wana study so early! arghs. anyways. i'm ranting so much sometimes its so boring and retarded...... not that you're not retarded like C'MON! who do you think you're kidding..[smirks]you?fancy not being retarded?! dream on! anyways. i'm really hoping i do well in my coming tests. i wana do really well (: haha. is that real or WHAT?!?! ahahas.

anywyas. i'm currently reading Eldest. the vocabulary usage is quite extensive. its really quite cool ((: and then The Silence of the lambs, the sequal to it, Hannibal Rising is coming out. but people don't seem very interested in that book. but anyways. i'll leave it as it is, have fun reading ((:

alrights.
tomorrow there's 4 periods of math, just pure fun! sighs. and anyways afterall, its secondary 4! ): but its just gonna keep getting harder and harder. anyways. lets not spoil the rest of the LNY/CNY! have fun!!!! and do remember to keep some for me aites (:



hey peoples.
hows the "bai-nian-ing" going? haha. well its pretty boring on my side. )): and i've not exactly reached my TARGET!!! ((((: but i shan't disclose the numbers lest you feel i'm greedy and terrible in nature cuz i'm "super nice" right? gahahs. anyways. these past 2 days went around to my uncle's auntie's places, well more of grandparent's lahs. like on the eve, went to my dad's mom's place and my uncles and aunt's were there so yeahs. and my g'ma's so generous this year! hahaha. she's SUPER nice! haha.

and my dad and mom this year super nice too (((: anyways. uhhms. this CNY has been rather realising to me. in the fact that its not like normal. i dont know what it is, but it seems rather... hmmms. different i dont know how to describe it. anyways over these days since i was so bored... like SOOOOO BORED!!! i watched 4 movies. rather freaky one is.

1. The Silence Of The Lambs:
this movie features Jodie Foster. yes she's really good. especially when the movie was such a long time ago. anyways the story's rather chilling and freaky. it talks about cannibalism, and psychopaths, lotsa mention of genius schiznophrenia. i hope i got that word right? haha. anyways its rather scary. as in what humans can do to another human. anyways i shall leave the story to you. other than the bloodiness, its fasinating!

2. The Covenant:
Yeahs. that movie that came out last year. Girls, the guys are really hot. and guys, there is lotsa cool stuff about "the power" they mention. the girls arent a huge thing in here. the lead girl, forgot her name though, she appears really often in other movies, nothing really awesome but the plot's kinda cool. though i felt it rushed through at certain parts. its like Troy, you know a huge storyline and its a LONG movie, but it rushed through despite the airtime. otherwise, relatively cool.

3. S.W.A.T:
yes the rally old one featuring Samuel L. Jackson and Colin Farrell. damn. i dont really like Colin, did i get his name right? lols. anyways its rather a cool plot how everything goes. That girl's really cool. i kinda do crush her attitude and aura of reaction. really cool. anyways i'd really advice people to watch this one. its like an insight to see what SWAT does in the U.S and whether CIA is cool and good enough to match up to their standards. furthermore, singapore? do they even stand a chance? ahha. dream on s'pore!

4. The Butterfly Effect 2:
well this movie's M18 so unless you can get someone to borrow it for you, or approach me and see if its on loan, otherwise have fun ((: anyways. this is by far the second best movie i watched while the first would've been The Covenant. The Butterfly Effect 2 is really cool. it talks about how this guy goes back to change his past and this affects his future. however, his future is affected so much that he loses the things he really wants and treasures. anyhows, let me just say, its REALLY GOOD! haha. yeahs. go catch it (:




alrights! i bought three books: They are:
1: The Silence Of The Lambs. yes! Ms B recommended it and though i've not got started cuz i cant decide which book to start on first.
2. Checkmate. Seriously i think this is the worst book i chose.
3. Eldest!!! Yes! the sequal to ERAGON! haha. yeahs. i think so far its fantastic. i've started on this already. so yeahs.



MUSIC!
really jiving to some new and old songs. the newer ones would be John Legend's P.D.A(We just don't care) i love the BIRDGE! its the best tuney thing ever! aha. and then there's Jordan Pruitt's Jump To The Rhythm and Outside Looking In. the old ones would be Starlight by Muse and MCR's Famous Last Words. yeahs. thats about all.



anyways. i think i've overcome my temporary bordem. now, later i've got some more "bai-nian-ing" but after that would be going to OCC to GOLF....how fun is that MICHELLE MY DEAR?? kill me lahs. )): anyways. this post goes out to all those who are SO bored. you've sucessfully completed you course of UN-BOREDEM-MENT!!! [eg. Michelle Ling (:] alrights. till here my darlings


much love!



hey people.

been a while since i've blogged. but gonna keep this shorter than normal. anyways. firstly and foremostly, i wana wish a few people Happy Birthday!

Syahidah!! HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY! you birthday was on the 13th of feb! Happy 16th!

Zhen Ren! HAPPY BIRTHDAY! your birthday is tomorrow eh? 17th Feb. Happy 16th too!

EVERY COUPLE! its past valentine's day but its okay. lets make it belated v. day! anyways. this is getting rather lame.

CHINESE NEW YEAR! alrights. wana wish everyone the best for the approaching following year. Do enjoy what you have, treasure everything! and have lotsa fun! those who are having major exams, STUDY HARD AND DO WELL!! haha. alrights.


till here then,
loves


~dissapointment beyond expression**



found out some stuff.
quite overwhelming.
didnt expect it to be this way.

but not very surprised either.
i did it, so can you.
anyway, wish you all the best.
just finding it hard to believe.
but hmmms. oh wells.
obviously kinda hurt
feel betrayed? cheated?
yeah. i dont know.
i guess it started happening a while ago
i'll miss it all, it'll hurt.

cant have what you used to have,
its too good to be true.
i'll move on, sure you will.
hope we do meet again
but if not, then never mind.
thats all.
for all i can give.



much love



i'm just really realised today.

think of you really differently. i dont know what i do that impacts you so much. but i've set new goals for myself one being to erradicate everything i ever thought which could. thank you for always tryin'a help but you're a contradiction, i've never actually said, cuz i dont wana be fully blunt but sometimes you're full of shit yourself. maybe those sweet lil' things wernt real? haha. i dont know. but its hard to believe that it came from you. if you do love someone else, i'll just be disappointed and convinced you're untrustable. thats alright cuz i was that to you. i admit i was like that. haha. nothing to hide about me being stupid idiotic and fucked up to make such overlooks. oh well. stupid and young and naive what could i have done?

well seriously, everything that comes in contact with me usually doesnt work out well. look i've lost so many friends. i get betrayed so many times.. its uncommon to not see me troubled by friendship/relationship issues. cuz i dont really trust anyone. hmmm. i have no idea why i'm even saying this. anyways i wana thank Kathy. you're really nice to help me. Thanks for being there ((: do really wana thank you. and for everything you do, hope that you'll do well in it and dont worry about him!! haha it'll work out ((: hahas. unlike me, maybe you're not as bad-lucked haha.

anyways. i'm just gonna concentrate on studies and do my best for my O's. thanks for shaking me up, and being so nice to me, i'll always hold a flame for you, but it'll never blow over, at least not now, not this year. i guess i'll have to really fully let go, but, it'll still be there, hidden. wish you everything good this year, just wanted to really help you by, but i guess that cant happen? i wanted to make sure you can at least make it to JC, whether u choose not to or do, but i guess there are enough people stressing you out, helping you out, everywhere i go, i see people helping you, so i'm not needed. i dont know if you'll see this, but i just wana say that you still do mean everything u were, i've tried, and its hard but i'll have to put in more effort to get over you i guess. you seem to have breezed through it. haha. dont know how but if you can, then i'm sure i can. i just wanted to be a close friend, but i think its impossible since i give u stress, increase you problems, i simply cant be in contact with you. you've enough friends helping you, in school, out of school. having lots of fun with them all. especially the guys. lets not get sexist. haha. but if it helps, den have fun with them, besides who am i to have a say? i'm merely a acquaintance. haha. it was like a fairy-tale it was surreal. it doesnt even exist really. i hate it how i realise things from someone else. it hurt me so much, but its the raw truth eh? i doubt you havent moved over it and gone on with someone else. it wasn't really a play thing right? i think it means something to you. i might be wrong, but trust me, sometimes i can hit the jackpot. i dont know how accurate i am, but i really dont know why i've lost all my friends, and you. have i changed so much to become an ass? or why? i really dont know. but whatever it is, i think its time to start blaming myself for being such a bitch and not push it to others. anyhows. i wont die so dont worry.

Loving the song: Outside looking in by Jordan Pruitt. it means quite a load of sentiments. right now it really relates. "You dont know how it feels to be outside the crowd. you dont know what its like to be left out"hmmms. anyhows. i guess i'm getting a little depressed. now i've gone through shan't be sad anymore. okays. uhhms. sighs. kinda sick. went to the docs. inflamation in the throat. i'm so frustrated with myself. i'm so defective. i get sick so easily, i cant even hold a handful of friends, fails in relationships. 2 are enough to set me apart from everyone. i'm super thin, too tall compared to size, eyesight bad, accademically sucky, non-talented. all i have is God. i guess its enough but hmmms. i dont know. sometimes i don't feel like He's even there. In times when you really need him and you cry out, sometimes you don't feel Him. it hurts so much you know? you have no one around you, you're facing the world one-handedly. its very saddening and depressing.

oh well. i think that should be all for now. quite a number of tests next week. not looking forward to it. no way. but hmmm lets just put it this way, what has to come has to come. tuitions gonna start full swing soon. so many things are happening so fast, and i still gotta put up with the trauma of getting over her. i'll marvel myself if i go through this week fine. cuz i know i wont. V Day's next wednesday. if anyone wants to go out, please do tell me, though i kinda think NO one would wana go out. like who's free to not go out with someone else? haha. anyways. no proper plans except tuitions and stuff like that. really depressing and demoralising but hmmms. it has to happen sooner or later. afterall i'm gonna be sitting for my O's right... sighs not looking forward to it.. not at all lahs. i wonder what my reaction would be when i recieve my results.....well lets not go so far.

thats all for now.
wana wish all those people who did well for their O's a huge CONGRATS! and those who didn't its okay. i'm sure you'll do fine when you complete you teritary education! haha. yeahs/

much love



i just wana cry out
it hurts so much
maybe you were right
maybe it would have helped.
it did. 3 weeks. not its not.
its not so easy.
to leave it behind and continue life as if nothing seemed to happen.
especially when you hit off couple of times without seeming to budge.
its amazing.
really
i dont know why you shed.
you wont tell me so why ask?
and then i do, yeah.
comforting. i need that sometimes.
its not how deep your friendships are.
its the face and image of the truth you give.
if you give me a halfved view, so will i
and thats what i did.
it hurts you know? to try and not succeed while you carry on
seeming so happy? when i got no one to turn to now?
everyone's gone. nobody at all.
and so there it goes i carry on my story my life so sad
i come home alone, feeling sad most of the times.
unknowing what to do. sometimes put a happy face on to cheer the mood for you
and you have the right to be happy, the right to ask. i dont know.
do i ever cross boundaries hmm. i dont know really.
its all about the small things we do. the small things.
i know you dont. no more. maybe i'm wrong well thats what i'm hoping for.
but i dont think you do. not anymore. you've moved on.
that was fast. you moved over in a week when u loved so much.
and now that you dont. isnt surprising you'd take less.
i never wanted to do this again. blog at 12.29 am when there's school in 6 hours.
maybe making u cry too? i'm sorry. for my coldness.
but to me, its no more than flirting. nothing more. yes.
you might wana tell the persons you busy bodies. yes. do so if you please
i'm not always hypocritical you know. there'll be a time when i'll speak up,
come out of my shell. i'm just watching, waiting to see. thats all.
if you wana ask? yes i still do. its not like i've immediately moved on
loving you. more. i dont know why. just happened. maybe its true
the more u dont want, the more it'l happen. i dont know.
probably needing to go now? alrights. i'm sorry for today
for yesterday for friday where i wasted your time. i've been of no use.
from today onwards maybe i'll just lead an anti-social life like some we know.
people who have no friends, but all enemies. well i do have friends.
just that they arent anything to me as you are.
i dont know why i'm so weak. maybe i've not accepted it yet. i dont know
but i still love the way it felt. i long for that. just a moment. its savoured.
thinking of it every now and then. i write sad stuff yeah.
sometimes you feel like your life has ended. its like this now. i dont know where i am.
what i'm doing. really. i dont know why i'm still seemingly alive. but oh well
i guess i'll stop.




Dear God, if there's anything i can do, show me oh God, show me how to do this. its hard for me and i know its hard for You too, but God i really need you now, when no one's here for me. i need to know what to do, and what you have planned for me. God, it really is confusing i dont know why You've done this, but i know that its in time that you'll show me Your way. Amen.

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