Monday, January 29, 2007 ;
1/29/2007 07:23:00 PM
hey people.
hmmms. just wana blog about today. hmmms. well firstly i really wana thank delia and cheryl teo for...lets say.advising me. yeahs. you two were real cool ((: thanks so much yes? haha. yeahs.
well for YOU.. i just wana say that..i never expected you to be like that. i never thought you'd accuse and slander so falsely. i know its easy to just blame, but sometimes you gotta look at like, who you're gonna involve. as for now, you've just got yourself into some people's head as a person who isnt that what we thought he was. bascially, you made yor bed now lay in it. dont blame it on others, cuz you had better known that not everyone's gonna be there for you to blame. if you bear to blame someone without thinking of the consequences of your actions on that person, its a very inhumane characteristic displayed by you. i thought highly of you, seriously even if your ignorance towards me had heigtened daily. i never wanted a friendship to be ruined, but it takes two hands to clap. since your hand isnt willing to play, then i cant do anything.
now to the OTHER you, i dont know why you never told me. its very schocking you know? i dont know what you told everyone, but if you relied on me for the situation and throw me aside, or maybe its not that. i'm assuming too much. look, if there's a problem, you have to tell me. not all humans shut their mouths you know, and if you go telling everyone, everyone's just gonna keep telling even more peolple and then what? it comes back to me and i dont even know whats going on until i get into trouble for something i wasnt aware of? hmmmms. dont know think its your actions that i suffered? well. lets not say suffered, but i took the rapt and thats it. i wasnt really involved. if i did give you the idea, then let it be, dont go telling everyone everything, cuz thats not what i enthrusted upon you. and if anyone is willing to spare some ink to print this out, please do. but what i said when i started this blog, i said that if you dont like what you see, get out of here i dont owe you anything neither do you owe me anything. its mutual. its my form of expression, express yourself if you want, badmouth me if you want, i dont care. its alright with me. seriously. if you think that i'm not what i am, do what you want. just know that you will have your consequences, whether good or bad. if you wana find fault in me, do it properly, talk and settle and nnot by brute force. we live in a developing society and not a jurassic era. i dont resort to violence to solve issues. you got an issue, talk it out. be prepared to accept and everything is fine. besides, thats also what i advised you remember? talk it over, but i remembered you said it wont exactly work. hmmms. so its not my fault either.
anyways. i just wana say today has been really one of the shocking issues happening in the last few months. just so shocked by two of you guys' actions. if you wana lie to me, do so, but just know that i wont always believe and yes, i might but the truth will be unravelled sooner or later. i'm not afraid to state that if you wana challenge me, then you're challenging God cuz i've got Him on my side. and i believe that He will watch over me. so you're meddliing with God and not me. its His footprints i lay on the ground, we were created in God's image, a reflection. so if you got problems, approach me, dont force your way into my life. threaten me all you want, contradict yourself all you want, i dont really bother. anyways. lets consider this case closed. i dont hate anyone, really. if you wana reinstate me as a friendship in your list of friends, then i'd be happy that you've changed your mindset. but its the only way. i didnt do anything to make this the situation as what it is today. so yeahs.
anyhoots. lemme touch on the good stuff about today! vocab test! it was rather easy. couldnt do one though. i think at most i'd minus 5 marks. nothing more. and then bio test. rather easy too, almost everything's from the TYS and yeahs. quite confident. yeahs. and then got 2 tests back. lemme do them below:
1. Geography - 14/25
2. Literature - 16/25
i'm glad i did well for lit. quite happy. Jolyn got 19! ilona got 18 pearlyn got like 17 and yeahs. quite a few 16's too anyways. yeahs. melinda got 16 i think yeahs. anyways. geog. i dont know kinda scared about it haha. anyhows. remember the a math differentiation test!!! yeahs. haha. there'll be an e math test next week ya? on locus. next thursday, i think its the 8th of feb. yeahs. sighs. time flies so fast. soon it'll be the scary,huge o's. hmmms. yeahs.
i've listening to Hillsongs now ((: At the Cross, its such a nice song. well look, all contemparary songs are awesome. they're just so lovely and so.... hmmmms. how'd i say it? it just shows you that maybe you were made for something else than studying. so i think its cool to listen to them while studying! haha. anyways. i think i'll go start mugging for differentiation test!! sighs. product rule and quotient rule. remember! quotient rule is u/v and product rule is uv! okays thats all for now!
much love
and sorry to those who think i'm super depressed. and oh, i also wana thank kie wu and delia for taking bus home with me ((: i kinda.. felt a different feeling, you'll get my letters telling you about it haha. yeahs. and xenia, thanks for warning me. i dont regret not listening to you, i think it was the best thing to do. if someone's hypocritical to do such a childish act, then i'll just change my perception of him. i'm not perfect, no one is, and if they dont listen, its not my fault. if he wants to blame it on me, then let him. its alright. if he'll feel better by doing so, let him. i'll be fine. thank you all for helping ((: including leslie yeahs. thanks for eveything ya'll. means a lot to me really. (((((:
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