Thursday, November 23, 2006 ;
11/23/2006 12:26:00 AM
hmmms.
sometimes your mood is capable of swinging so much it exceeds the 180 degree span and stretches to 270. a complete 3/4. and when that happens you basically become what i am, useless. left with nothing. you feel dejected, sad, empty, used, you're so terrified, scared, hurt, torn apart, you feel like you've been abandoned, left alone and ignored. but we humans aren't capable of inflicting such hate are we? at least not without another person or the other party knowing? i mean thats inhumane, terrible, insensetive, unco-operative. anybody could tell apart a person lying and a person who feels truly what he or she means. any person would have the basic instinct to realise that you aren't just leaving him/ her behind for no reason, there is a reason why you care so much, be it love, be it friendship. it gets harder everytime. maybe we ought to perish and never cease to exist. maybe our friends arent really friends. maybe maybe maybe. why can't things be confirmed? why cant our feelings not be played with? and when everything seems alright. and when someone's left and gone away, you just come back for more? am i supposed to be a substitute? am i supposed to be a figure-head? am i just some lousy old block of wood? am i? is that what i am made up of? is that what friendship means to you? is this real trust? i really doubt so..but..
maybe it is........at least to you it is
every life is a new experience
