Tuesday, November 21, 2006 ;
11/21/2006 09:52:00 PM
heyys.
third post of the day,
kinda had a mood swing. i don't know. sometimes you think its happiness. but all it is, is infact the contrary, its sadness, its just not right. it hurts you more than anything. its as if you didn't know it was there. you wana cry out loud. to someone but you cant cuz maybe that person is not meant to hear it. its not as if i could do anything but hate myself for acting and being like that. i mean the only way to solve it is for the other party to change right. sighh.
sometimes you feel like its the start of something new and then something else falls and you dont know what to do. you just feel like slamming your head in the wall. sometimes people give you hopes and you get so happy. excited. elated. and then it just stops and you fall down having a bad feeling about yourself. its just how the world treats you. sometimes you feel like life has ended. but yet you dont want it to end cuz you dont believe that your time is up. you dont believe that this is the outcome.
sometimes you cry rivers for a person, sometimes you cry the same river for another person and they all mean everything to you. sometimes your love isnt the only close person to you. sometimes your best friend's actions means more to you. sometimes 10 years makes a difference from 2. and when someone who knows you for 10 years fights with you, you just feel so sad even if your lover has been with you for 2. its just how life is isnt it? its just punishment. it just kills you slowly. it just makes you suffer so much for nothing. and to actually think that that stuff meant nothing to you? how insensetive, how callous. how mean how terrible. how inhumane how great an injustice brought unto you. you just wana cry and ask God "what have i done to deserve this plight"? and we always remember that God doesnt do things for nothing everything He does has a purpose. and then you wonder what does your friend's dong and saying have on your personal relationship. then everything changes. it falls apart. you die again.
every life is a new experience
