Thursday, September 14, 2006 ;
9/14/2006 04:19:00 PM
i am gonna try to keep this short. haha.
anyways i just wana blog about some stuff really close to my heart today. no names mentioned. if you know who it is then think in my place. how would YOU react? just think about it.
anyways. lets start. first. friends around you. they should be your friends by telling you, trusting you. not just being there as a figurhead to PRETEND to be something or someone. this isn't a friend. this is a block of irritating people who act as pests. if you wana be a friend then be true. don't hide. i mean i know about it why not just tell me everything. its not like what i'm not telling you cuz i didnt even tell you a single thing about the situation. so much for thinking you as a friend.
birthday's in 2 days time. but i aint really that looking forward to it. just waiting for the truth to unfolde before me hurts me so much. i don't know what will happen tomorrow. i don't know how things will go. tomorrow badn 2 and 3 students are going to the esplanade for The Forbidden City play. people its a 7.15. you have to be there on time. latecomers will not be entertained. don't bring a bag. its a hassle. bag check and all.
anyways. i just hope that she will at least spend some time with me. if she doesnt wana den fine. i mean what is this? a real relationship? more like something ficticious. its so surreal. its like happening but it isn't happening between us. come on. is it so hard? if i love someone i'd obviously put the person first before other things like friends and before my own needs. its natural. if not, then at least give an explanation and not just fucking ignore. thats not the right thing to do. its so COLD. its so unreal. its not happening. for weeks. maybe it just cant happen. what am i going through? i go through so much shit everyday. its tiring you know. u get what i mean? arghs. i'm SO SO SO SO SO SO SO confused and i dont wana turn to anyone for help because i dont wana drag them into this. its not nice. they have their own problems.
anyways. these 2 things just really hit me hard today. whatever. i shant rant anymore
rock on sweethearts.
every life is a new experience
